My New Year's Resolution...

So... I've decided that 2008 wasn't the best of years for me... it was actually one of the worst, if not worst years of my life. It just seemed as the year went on, things just kept on happening, and things just got worse. Don't get me wrong, the year started out pretty good. I was half way through nursing school, and Matt and I had just finished putting the finishing touches on our new, bigger place and we moved in late February. Then, everything just went downhill from there... here's how it went... My great uncle lost his battle with prostate cancer, I didn't make the grades in school so I was forced to drop out, I found out I was pregnant with twins and miscarried, Matt and I started having troubles, we broke up and I moved out and and got un-engaged (but we got back together a few weeks later), I didn't make the re-entry deadline to the nursing program in August, in November I found out I had blood clots in BOTH of my legs, and I failed the re-entrance exam into the Nursing program in December...
So... My Resolution for this year *2009* hopefully will go a little something like this... just to have a better year all together. I am joining 1-2-3 fit with my mom starting tomorrow, I am going to take classes at PJC towards my Associates degree until I can get back into the Nursing program or the Radiography program, I am going to try to save some money, hopefully get re-engaged and start planning a wedding, and hopefully Matt and I can start saving/looking for houses. Sounds like big plans, but hey, I'm 23 and I feel like instead of things getting better and me settling down its going in the opposite direction. I have no degree in anything, I've been in college for 4 years with nothing to show for it, and I went from having my own place with the love of my life for a year and a half, to living back at home, only seeing Matt on the weekends like it used to be way back when we first started dating, 6 years ago. It just feels like my life is going nowhere at the moment and I feel like I need something more. I just want to make this year the year that I accomplish a lot, and prove to everyone that I can do something, that I'm capable of having a better life, and able to provide for the ones that I love instead of the ones I love providing for me!!! So, *CHEERS*... heres to a new year, a new life, and to the future I have ahead of me :)